OneKaile's Life

To my lil lion princess

Saturday, May 22, 2010, 9:20 PM

At first, i was very reluctant to meet you due to certain reasons.

I was afraid that i wouldn't click well with you.

But after awhile, hanging out and so forth.

We actually got closer weeks after weeks.

I was happy that we were getting closer.

The first time we hugged before saying our goodbyes.

The first time you rested your head on my chest.

All those morning/night text and calls.

I appreciate all that you've done for me.

Rushing through your hectic schedule just to meet me and all.

But i came to realize that no matter how hard i try,

i can never reach into your heart.

It's as though a brick wall was placed there.

No matter how much i try to break down that wall,

I'd only end up bruising myself.

I'm afraid that things wouldn't go the way i hoped for.

But you would always be there, somehow reassuring me that theres still hope.

After today's event, i thought we could go much closer to each other.

But my fears finally came true.

You uttered those words, without emotions.

"You're getting annoying".

I was stunned,shocked and baffled.

Why would you suddenly say that sentence to me?

When i've never even done anything wrong to you.

That sentence although short.

Is still being played in my mind.

Like a record player on playback.

Like i said before.

I'm afraid things would turn out worse.

I'm afraid that i'd get hurt in the end.

This tiger's heart has a very fragile spot.

And you managed to get a direct hit on that particular spot with your words.

I'm afraid that if things were to still continue.

I may have fallen deeply in love with you.

And i'm afraid that when love comes, despair will follow suit.

Before anything worser happens, i'd rather we stop all this.

If you don't see the same vision about us then we'd better stop fooling ourselves.

I'm afraid lion.

Afraid that this poor tiger's heart will not be able to take another fatal blow.