Hands of time
Sunday, May 9, 2010, 2:59 PM
Hey there homies..
It really has been awhile since i last posted something up.
My apologies for not updating any single shit at all.
Been really busy trying to spend time with friends and family.
Ns is really effing using all my free time.
Well, to start things first, im back to where i began.
Things have been pretty wild since the last time i remembered.
New people i've met.
New people i've loved.
But all in all, all the experiences i've had.
I'm happy that my relationship with all my friends are still holding strong.
The people from Yishun and Gombak.
You guys rock my socks off.
Sadly to say, love life hasn't been all that well.
I admit, i've made some bad decisions throughout my whole life.
Done some bad stuff.
Said some bad stuff.
To those who were insulted or assaulted by me, i hope you'd find it in your heart to forgive me.
This heart has experienced near death.
Feeling the pressure of almost losing someone you hold dear to your heart.
Feeling the ache of knowing that your loved one doesn't love you at all.
Feeling the coldness that this heart hasn't felt for a very long long time.
And yet here i am, struggling.
To finally be able to feel true love.
Real love.
Not some made up love story or fairytale.
All i ever wanted is your love and soul.
Currently, i noticed some changes in myself.
I'm being more calmer then the past.
I'm less aggressive.
I'm lesser of everything i used to be back then.
Friends,family have all chipped in to help me on my epic journey in life.
They're all my pillars of strength.
And yet, there is but one pillar still missing.
"The Pillar of Love"
Hopefully i'd be able to build that someday soon.
On a lighter note.
I'd like to wish my mummy a very Happy Mother's Day.
She's everything to me.
She has been there for me through all my delirious antics.
My troubled times.
She has shed tears and blood for me.
But no matter what, my mummy always prays for my happiness.
She always prays for me no matter how shitty of a son i am to her.
She has always been the most patient with me.
And that is why i'm doing all i can to make her happy.
To put a smile on her beautiful face.
To stop making her shed tears and worrying 24/7 about me.
"I LOVE YOU MUMMY!"
With all my heart and soul.
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