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Friday, May 28, 2010, 12:09 AM
Apparent things have been going on this past few weeks.
Things between us have heated up to a point where it's unbearable.
My life, my story, my world.
It's slowly becoming more hectic.
More time consuming.
Like a wick slowly burning out.
I just hope today things would be settled.
I'd really want things to be set straight.
For me, my friends and for future events happening.
Till my next post..
Labels: The devil within
To my lil lion princess
Saturday, May 22, 2010, 9:20 PM
At first, i was very reluctant to meet you due to certain reasons.
I was afraid that i wouldn't click well with you.
But after awhile, hanging out and so forth.
We actually got closer weeks after weeks.
I was happy that we were getting closer.
The first time we hugged before saying our goodbyes.
The first time you rested your head on my chest.
All those morning/night text and calls.
I appreciate all that you've done for me.
Rushing through your hectic schedule just to meet me and all.
But i came to realize that no matter how hard i try,
i can never reach into your heart.
It's as though a brick wall was placed there.
No matter how much i try to break down that wall,
I'd only end up bruising myself.
I'm afraid that things wouldn't go the way i hoped for.
But you would always be there, somehow reassuring me that theres still hope.
After today's event, i thought we could go much closer to each other.
But my fears finally came true.
You uttered those words, without emotions.
"You're getting annoying".
I was stunned,shocked and baffled.
Why would you suddenly say that sentence to me?
When i've never even done anything wrong to you.
That sentence although short.
Is still being played in my mind.
Like a record player on playback.
Like i said before.
I'm afraid things would turn out worse.
I'm afraid that i'd get hurt in the end.
This tiger's heart has a very fragile spot.
And you managed to get a direct hit on that particular spot with your words.
I'm afraid that if things were to still continue.
I may have fallen deeply in love with you.
And i'm afraid that when love comes, despair will follow suit.
Before anything worser happens, i'd rather we stop all this.
If you don't see the same vision about us then we'd better stop fooling ourselves.
I'm afraid lion.
Afraid that this poor tiger's heart will not be able to take another fatal blow.
Labels: Do we or do we not
Rainy Days
Sunday, May 16, 2010, 6:18 PM
It's raining heavily today.
I have a confession to make.
I think i may have fallen for her.
But i'm still confused, what if things happen.
Labels: Questions
Hands of time
Sunday, May 9, 2010, 2:59 PM
Hey there homies..
It really has been awhile since i last posted something up.
My apologies for not updating any single shit at all.
Been really busy trying to spend time with friends and family.
Ns is really effing using all my free time.
Well, to start things first, im back to where i began.
Things have been pretty wild since the last time i remembered.
New people i've met.
New people i've loved.
But all in all, all the experiences i've had.
I'm happy that my relationship with all my friends are still holding strong.
The people from Yishun and Gombak.
You guys rock my socks off.
Sadly to say, love life hasn't been all that well.
I admit, i've made some bad decisions throughout my whole life.
Done some bad stuff.
Said some bad stuff.
To those who were insulted or assaulted by me, i hope you'd find it in your heart to forgive me.
This heart has experienced near death.
Feeling the pressure of almost losing someone you hold dear to your heart.
Feeling the ache of knowing that your loved one doesn't love you at all.
Feeling the coldness that this heart hasn't felt for a very long long time.
And yet here i am, struggling.
To finally be able to feel true love.
Real love.
Not some made up love story or fairytale.
All i ever wanted is your love and soul.
Currently, i noticed some changes in myself.
I'm being more calmer then the past.
I'm less aggressive.
I'm lesser of everything i used to be back then.
Friends,family have all chipped in to help me on my epic journey in life.
They're all my pillars of strength.
And yet, there is but one pillar still missing.
"The Pillar of Love"
Hopefully i'd be able to build that someday soon.
On a lighter note.
I'd like to wish my mummy a very Happy Mother's Day.
She's everything to me.
She has been there for me through all my delirious antics.
My troubled times.
She has shed tears and blood for me.
But no matter what, my mummy always prays for my happiness.
She always prays for me no matter how shitty of a son i am to her.
She has always been the most patient with me.
And that is why i'm doing all i can to make her happy.
To put a smile on her beautiful face.
To stop making her shed tears and worrying 24/7 about me.
"I LOVE YOU MUMMY!"
With all my heart and soul.
Labels: Still ticking
