It happens~
Tuesday, March 3, 2009, 3:06 AM
Sad as it is, i think i've really lost to the devil. My whole existence is being questioned by me and others. The type of person i want to be like is lightyears away from what i am now. I'm a beast in the form of a human. A beast with desires far worst then normal humans. A desire to hunt, to feel the power, to feed.What is really ticking in my brain. Am i really losing my marbles? I've been having strange dreams. Dreams that come in various situations. I've had a dream that states that i can't die. A dream of me seeing what seems abnormal seem normal. A dream where by anybody's deep desires can come true. Please be the judge. Judge me for what i have become. Judge me for who i may become. Judge me for what disasters i may cause. Pray for me that i may rest peacefully. Pray for me that i may finally see the light and the end of the tunnel. To find the peace and tranquility my mind and my soul has been yearning soo much for. The tears that could never drop without having the desire of destruction. I despise what i have become. Ashamed of myself for showing people who i am. Ashamed that i dare not tell people of what i really am. A maniac on the lose. A sadist. Numerous time's ive held the blade of a knife near to my neck. In front of my mother as well. But each time i feel like stabbing myself, i find this weakened voice telling me not to do it. How long will this voice last before it truly disappears and i disappear with it??Can someone please help me? Sitting here, alone in the dark. Tears welding up in my eyes. But barely making it down my cheeks. Save me from my misery. Save me from this torment. Wake me up from this nightmare. Please??? Labels: Ticking~
