Rain
Sunday, November 16, 2008, 4:39 PM
Watching the rain fall,i feel a sense of calmness in my heart.I'd be willing to walk in the rain all drenched then walking in the hot sun.The rain also expresses my feelings when im sad or down cause i cant cry that easily.I can admit now that i can cry but tears only drop by the droplets..
Im feeling really great now that things are going real well between us.I really hope that in time to come,we can truly share our emotions with each other like an open book.Like the saying "Behind the storm,there's a silver lining" or something of that sort :)
Attachments are fine but its taking its toll on my health.Now i know why hoteliers are either strong in the sense that their body can take changes or weak because they cant cope with the changes.I fall into the weak because work shifts are always jumping around.I dont have the standard shifts and its pretty much hectic when guest comes by the flocks.
Well,all and all im really happ that things are going where they're going and im really looking forward to whats in store =)
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Monday, November 3, 2008, 3:11 PM
It's nearing 2 months for me being with my girlfriend,but i don't feel as though i am someone who fills up her life. This has been tiring for me to cure her of her problems. It seems as though i can't seem to pull her out of her past.
Taken from her blog:
"Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know"
U may say that this is from a song,but it fits perfectly for you. U've told me that songs are the means for u to express yourself. This fits perfectly for you. Ur still being pulled back towards your past for i don't know what reasons.
An irony:
"I try to be someone important to u but im still a nobody
I try to be someone who fills up ur life but im still a nobody
Even though im there for you,im still a nobody"
The rain's pouring heavily now. I feel as if it symbolises me in a certain way. I want to cry but i just can't seem to cry. I want to be someone important to you, shower you with love but it seems that it just doesn't reach you at all. I'll still do my best to change you,to cure you of ur problems but first of all you have to take that step of wanting to change it. Not running away from it.
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