Been Awhile
Tuesday, August 26, 2008, 8:33 PM
Hey there people..Its really been awhile since i blogged.Got a few comments from people saying that my blog dead already is it?Well~ its not,its just that things have been going way too much for me to actually think of what to write in this oOo soo ORANGE blog :)
School's been going well lately.It seems that ive gotten a few new friends rather then being the invisible dude ive always been.Ive learnt to appreciate life as it is.Finally 3/4 done with my projects and 1 more to go.Attachments to hotels coming up soon and im really beginning to feel the fear and excitement of the hotel industry.I really am not prepared to face the shit that i'll get over there :(
Life has its many ups and downs.No matter how deeply or bad u fall,u shouldn't give up and keep on trying till there's nothing else that u can do.But for those who tried and got no results,i think its about time u all gave up because the dream that ur chasing could actually hurt u more then bringing u joy in ur life.Always be prepared to face the worst and be amazed by the good things that come to those who wait :)
I went clubbing with Tan during last fri.We went to MOS with Tan's friend a two girls whom i know from my cousin.So we danced till 12+am and then the girls had to go.Soo sad :( Three gays had to dance together.Hahahah:P After we sent them off,we went in and i was exactly in front two lesbians who were kissing and sucking on each others tits.OMG~ not the right place to do it.Soo many spectators actually enjoying the show sia.But overall,my experience at MOS was really a great time but i expected the crowd to be more sporting.The crowd was down right LAME SHIT :(
Never really expected it to be this way,
Of all the hugs and kisses ive given u till this day,
I thought that it could grow but it faded away,
Like the morning dew,
I saw it fly away,
All my hopes and dreams,
Keep crashing down that way,
I think im out of luck to make u go my way,
Till this very day,
I failed in making anyone stay,
Just for "YOU" baby,
Come and take me away.
A short poem to girls that have played a part in my life.This is how i kinda feel about all of u.I hope that all the wrong things that ive done towards all of u,i wish that u can forgive me in the most sincerest ways.Thnks for spending your precious time with a worthless bum like me :)
Alright ladies & gentlemen,till the next post.Have fun and stay healthy.CHEERS~
Labels: Fallout
Pretend
Friday, August 15, 2008, 11:32 PM
This post is specially for fafa..I dont understand why things are becoming worse again now?U told me that even aft we broke up,u'll still be as close to me.We've walked together for 6mths,enduring all that obstacles that happened.I endured all the hardships to make u into changewho u are now.Now ur telling mi that im pretending that i need you?What makes u think that im pretending?
- Isit bcos i rarely msg u now?
- Isit bcos i dun seem to care much about u?
I really dun understand things at the moment now.I still nid u close to me.I nid my closest person who has known me for 6mths oready.Ur the closest person i have nxt to a gf.If ur not there to give mi support then who will.If ur not there then i'll be lonely without anyone caring for me.If u still want to keep on saying that im pretending to need you then so be it.Oh well,thats life~
Today also,went 118 to actually find ppl to beat up in the end nvr come down.ZzZz,no balls the person sia! At least got phyllis there to comfort me..Hahaha,thnks soo much for helping me out during this troubled times.I owe u big time sia :)Labels: The Things that i Dont Understand
Apologies
Wednesday, August 13, 2008, 8:27 PM
To all those ppl that are close to me,thnks for being there when i was broken last night.U guys really helped me shape me back to where i last left off..
- YJ
- Chloe
- Phyllis
- Suffy
- Fafa
- Ammar
Things now seem to be much more clearer.My only best brothers,YJ,Tan & Ammar are the only ones i can always rely on.They are my closest brothers next to my own kin.My blood bro's and my younger bro..So now im gonna look forward and think of what life will have for me.
School's a drag! Nothing seems to be interesting for me now.I slpt like alot during classes for the past few months now.I guess my stamina/zest is really getting really low.Oh well thats life for me :)Labels: PS: Im still not over "YOU"
Feelings Soo Wrong
Tuesday, August 12, 2008, 8:47 PM
This may by far be the most saddest post that i have.It seems that i really lost my touch in this game called "LOVE".It seems that whoever i try to get close to,there'll always be some sort of barrier btwn me and their heart.This is strike three for me already.I dun even know whether i got the strength to move on with life as the Azuan that i knew.
- My relationship wif Fafa broke due to her personal reasons(i understand)
- My efforts to make _ _ _ _ _ like mi sorta didnt get through her(becos of someone)
- My effort to make _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ like mi died down like a candle in a strong wind
I've never been this lost because of love but oh well thats life for me right.I deserve all that i got because of what i've done in the past.I guess this is karma of wadever u'll like to call it.People seem to be in love but now im like totally lost.
- What am i suppose to do now?
- How am i suppose to go about doing it?
- Who will be the one to guide me to my happiness?
Questions that i cant even ans for myself.WHERE ARE "YOU"???? :'(Labels: Troubling Feelings
Misery
Sunday, August 10, 2008, 8:01 PM
Yesterday conferenced wif chloe and YJ.Talked and talked then suddenly me and YJ quarelled over something that i said.It was meant as a
direct approach for u to understand what i meant and i didnt meant it to hurt u that much also.So to YJ,i'm really sorry kays if i've offended u in someways or another.Guessed i wasnt thinking straight.
Today,i cant really explain why but i jus feel that life's been really bad on me..Oh well,thats for me right.But i jus cant seem to find thelife right pieces to my almost complete picture.
- The right girl
- The right atmosphere to learn
- The right friends in school
- The right way to treat everyone equally
Although im trying my best,it jus doesnt seem that i can do this alone.I nid "YOU".
Labels: Where Are You
Today in History
Saturday, August 9, 2008, 11:08 PM
Welcome readers! Today in
history,we have become what we are now.Im proud to be a
singaporean.So, i slpt like
15hours today+ bathed and went to grandparents house. I've decided to
stop wooing _ _ _ _ _.Cos i jolly well know i cant give her the
happiness that she yearns for.Im jus someone whose
good enough to be known as
friends.In life, there's always
surprises and oh well thats
life for you~
Labels: Time to join Singlehood
Life as it is
Friday, August 8, 2008, 8:37 PM
Today, I slept like from 8am-11am in school. School was really boring as seriously speaking,i don't have really close friends that i can click with. After that went slacking wif Hairil at 118 and we waited for "those" ppl like for about 3 goddamn hours sia..Zzz..We went for sparring sessions + in the end i had a really terrible cramp around my thighs.Been awhile since i really trained myself.Oh well that's life.
I'm really confuse regarding _ _ _ _ _.I mean im like 4th in line..OMG~ how long is the queue anyways. Hmm..But i promise myself to give my best even if the results aint satisfying.Had a talk wif fafa yesterday night. Talked to her and i actually did feel better cos i knew i could change her sadness to happiness.Well,to fafa "JYJY"!
So now im slacking and waiting for my last breath :)
Labels: Oh well thats life
The First of Many
Thursday, August 7, 2008, 1:46 AM
Welcome ladies & gentlemen to the first of many edition of my blog. I've come to a decision to create a blog of my own for the purpose of reflecting. It may seem lengthy but do read on to know more bout the first and many events of my life.
Life doesnt seem that cheerful when ur having problems wif school,friends whom u regard as brothers,the girl that u like and the advices that u give which in the end backfires. Oh well,thats life for you!
Labels: First of Many
